Night brain.

I suffer from Night Brain. Pretty sure I"m having a bout of it right now, which is why I am not in bed, fast asleep at this unGordonly hour.

Night Brain is that horrible condition where you realize, with a grip of the heart and gasp, that every plan, idea and action that you undertake or consider undertaking by the light of day, is a horrible, terrible, catastrophic idea!

Night brain is the opposite of hope and optimism. Night Brain is hopeless, crushing, desperate and black. Night Brain whispers over your shoulder as your head is on the pillow...are you serious? That is the WORST idea you have ever had! IF you do this thing, you will regret it the rest of your life!

Night Brain makes every decision the WRONG decision. It makes every plan a life long sentence of damnation. Night Brain is a place of eternal regret and no redemption. Every bad move, and they are all bad, will haunt you and follow you relentlessly. They are HUGE and of grand consequence and you will never get over it, never have another opportunity, wish, until you die, that you hadn't done this rash thing you want to do. With Night Brain it does not matter how innocuous your idea is, Night Brain has magnification powers of a billion and the tiniest amount of bad idea is blown up to the size of a planet. And that bad idea planet crushes you.

I believe Night Brain is the reason some people start drinking heavily after 7. Night Brain is less painful if your senses are dulled. But when you are in a clear headed state, Night Brain is the emotional equivalent of a root canal without freezing.

I have found that long, dark winter nights are the worst, where the flat black blank windows in the livingroom stare in on me with a blinkless gaze. I feel trapped, rooted, and the nagging voice of Night Brain creeps slowly into my ear from somewhere far back over my shoulder and whispers nightmares. While I'm awake!

Busyness is an antidote. Sometimes leaping out of bed in desperation to walk laps through the kitchen and down the hall to the laundry room and back again. Shut up, shut up, shut up you nagging dread! No this decision to do this will NOT kill me and if its a bad decision so what, it's not the end of the world, no one in Canada goes to jail for making a bad decision. (unless it's an illegal bad decision). And I fight Night Brain with my wimpy Sword of Reason. Sadly, my sword of reason is very pitiful and most of the time Night Brain beats the crap out of me.

I've got it now. Night Brain. I want so badly to go to bed and close my eyes but there it is...sure Uno, go ahead and do this thing you want to do, you fool, you idiot, go ahead and get ready and see how sorry you will be... I just want to sleep!

OMG, I have that sometimes! I am glad there is a medical explanation for it!!

Hope your symptoms subside soon. Multiple nights of Night Brain is difficult.

I am beginning to think that in my case Night Brain may well be the more accurate of the two brains. My day brain is full of optimisim and bright ideas and "you can do it" and "it will be great"! Then I go ahead and do it only to have trolls come smashing though.... sigh.
Grumpy cat is my new hero.

Getting a double whammy right now. Have a bad cold and sick brain' works very similar. Feeding the birds last night, I even wondered why I bother keeping them. Cold makes it hard to sleep too so I have 'sick-night brain'.

Fowler, I hear your pain. Sometimes as I set dinner on the table I wonder, why do I feed these people? And I'm not even sick when I think it. I think that's called Cooked Brain.

I hope you feel better soon and your poor birds are still members of your family when you have recovered.

Uno....I LOVE your topics. I often don't respond due to lack of time but I am endlessly entertained by them and often read them to my husband who has also grown fond of you in a 'cyberly' kind of way. Not many of us responded to this but look at how many of us read what you wrote.

My husband and I want to meet you one day and he thinks you should become a syndicated columnist. You'd be AWESOME!

Have a wonderful day.

Chicory, I think Uno is a Cylebrity too! In reference to another post that would send it off topic, I like your hair too.
Love these posts of yours Uno and I often have night brain. Mine isn't always negative, but goes round and round about what I didn't accomplish in the day and what I have to do the next. Often makes sleep completely impossible........

Cylebrity. Ba ha ha, that kills me!

That is very kind of you to say, Chicory, but I'm quite a let down in person. Just a regular guy. Nothing special. Or, as Coopslave said when she met me, you're taller than I expected.

That's me. Tall.

I suffer .....man do I suffer some nights ! but I seem to do my best work in these hours of dispair ! Sleepless doesn't mean non productive for me .But I will admit that sometimes I drop down to scary lows ,but I have come up so far ?I question everything and sometimes it gets fairly overwelming but I linger on ..........while the rest sleep fitlessly in there slumber

Doesn't it drive you nuts when you want sleep so bad, so bad your body hurts. SO bad you could cry. But sleep doesn't come. You toss and sigh and sweat and get a cramp in your foot. You read a bit but read the same sentence 6 times and realize reading is out of the question. You look at slumbering spouse, mouth open, snoring, face mashed into pillow, oblivious to your pain and suffering. Oblivious to your despair and anguish and you think, I OUGHT TO SLUG HIM!

Because...and this is nothing I know first hand, this is just something I read on the internet...slugging a sleeping person can be kind of amusing. They tend to leap up, completely confused and disoriented, flining and kicking, swatting the pillows away. They shout weird things like : What the heck is going on? What's the problem? Hey, did you just slug me?

But like I said, I know nothing about this. Just read it somewhere. So don't slug anyone who might be sleeping near you even though a good dose of amusing comedy might be just what the doctor ordered. Don't do it. Just say no. And suffer with your Night Brain.

Yeah that's it, Night Brain......

Oh for sure, always read Uno's posts, don't always respond, but yep, she is a thinkin' woman for surely, day, night and inbetween (and you are NOT a disappointment to meet in person, you are beautiful, you are kind and you are smart), nice hair, and you are for surely tall too. Anyone that has met you will agree with me, I know that, smiling. It's true.

Now back to night brain. I have that. I don't like it. I also have day brain. They are both the same, but take places in different spots. Night brain is in my bed, when I lay awake for ours, trying to organize things and figure things out. Day brain is when I am up and about, trying to organize things and figure things out. Identical, just in the different spots . And oh ya, Uno, I have a partner that will lay his head on the pillow and be gently snoring in less than a minute. Go figure. How can that happen? Yep, felt like slugging him too, not a hard slug, but enough to let him know that I am awake . Why? But he has the opposite problem. He goes to bed at 9:30, asleep by 9:31, but...he gets up at 2:00, sometimes even earlier. He goes into such a deep sleep that I think he has rested enough in just about 4 hours that I can get done in an 8 hour bed stint. Go figure that? Who wants to get up at 2:00. I don't mind 4:30 or 5:00 and that is common for me, but 2:00, oh come on!! Night brain. A most wicked thing. Cause by the time the next morning comes, I have forgotten about everything that I was trying to get done from our bed that I would accomplish and figure out for the next day. Oh, oh, just thought of something. Maybe that is why I have day brain, trying to figure out what the night brain has figured out. Blah. Ya, I go to bed about 9:00 to 9:30, get to sleep maybe about 11:00 or later, get up at 4:30. Hmmmm...I don't think I am getting enough proper sleep. Oooh, thinking about this, I am feeling tired, got up too early, thanks night brain, you gone and done it again. Sometimes I can go to sleep in about half an hour, but the normal is to not sleep til at least a couple of hours has passed. Kind of bugs me Have an awesome day, with the brain, CynthiaM.