Oh geeze, I read this and then went to another thread, it made me sad and I didn't know what to say. Then I thought I had to reply and came back to it, it was important for me to reply, I don't know why. I am very glad that your Mother is no longer in pain and that she can be as normal as she could possibly be. That is a good thing. It reminds me when I lost my Auntie years ago. She was very ill and dying and she was heavily medicated with morphine I guess. I can still remember being with her, and her face looked peaceful. That is the only way I can describe how she looked. I know it was the morphine that had taken away her pain, which brought my Auntie's beautiful face back. It was wrought with the look of pain before, and that is an awful looking face. Still in deep sorrow about you and your Mamma, but she will be in a place, where there is no pain, that will be a better day for her, not what she leaves behind, but for her. Sigh. Keep that chin up Coopslave, time will carry on, the pain will lessen, but never go, and you will shine with smiles again yourself, and with that, my wishes for a good day for you, CynthiaM.