Life is not Fair

As I sit here alone for the evening, the first time in a number of days I am reflecting back over the last 37 years.I spent those with the most wonderful man whom I lost last Tuesday. All I can be thankful is that he did not suffer to my knowledge.
He left to go to the hospital to find what was causing such great pain. That was about five weeks ago. He was rushed into Edmonton. Where after a lot of tests and roller coaster ride it was discouvered he had cancer.
One week later he went into surgery and was given the all clear. About ten days later he was told he had infection. A few days later he end up in ICU. After another 3 surgeries going on to the fourth he passed away. Five weeks from beginning to end. All I can hold on to right now is that he is not suffering.
The family has a lot adjusting to do now to pick up our lifes without him. The grandsons are just crushed and wondering what to do next. My son is so losted and not sure where to go now. My daughter is so hurt. It is very hard for me to fix anything as I lost my love, best friend and husband.
Is it not funny as a wife and mother. It is not funny as a wife and a mother that I have find a way to pick everyone up and keep them going. So far they have blame me for everything and then in the next breath they seem to relize that maybe I have lost all lot more. I guess that we will all get better with time and love.
All I can say is to hug your other half because who knows what is going to happen tomorrow. Cherish every moment of everyday with them because it could change tomorrow. Never part on bad terms and never go to bed mad. Always tell the other how much you love them because tomorrow may never come.
I Love you Brian
Father, Friend and Husband
Lynn

Oh, Brahmachick. I read this and my heart dropped to my shoes. So many here have been through the same and would reach out to you, to help you, to hold you, and yet know that this journey, despite all the care and love and concern, is a path you walk alone. I am so, so sorry.

Yes, you are all going to go through a bewildering range of emotions and reactions and now more than ever you'll have to give each other more forgiveness.

I hope you find your way. I hope you cry all that you need to. And if remembering your good man makes you smile, then let your heart feel that little bit of gladness. Loss and blessing can visit you at the same time. You will feel all the pain. I pray that the small things that are still good can bring you some comfort and a fleeting moment of peace at this time too. Prayers to you and your family.

Oh girl, is there anything that anyone can say? This is a very sad time in your life, and so sudden. The loss is felt by you and yours and us too, a loss of human life is the most heart rendering thing. Take care, try to keep that chin up, and think of you too, you will need tender loving care as well. Still find something in this day that will bring a smile, look to your children, they do have a way to bring a smile, wishes for better days, as time goes on and the pain goes from a roar to a roar of a more dull feeling. CynthiaM.

My heart goes out to you at this sad time. Hoping time will heal your shattered heart. I hope many take your advice about loving your loved one as you never know.

Heather

I am sorry, words fail me, my heart felt condolences.

I can't imagine going through what you have described ! My heart cries for you and your family .So many highs and then the lows , may you find peace in your memories

I hope you and your family can find some peace and solice together. I'm sending my heartfelt condolences.

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My most sincere and heartfelt condolences to you and your family.

Life is not fair. I can say, however, you are right to know he is no longer suffering and to take comfort in that. Sometimes the quickness of it all is whats the most overwhelming, rather than the passing itself. Take your time to grieve, whatever way is comfortable for you, and just remember, always, to move through the pain.

He is with you whenever you need him if you believe that to be so.

Head up love. My condolences.

I have no words to express my deep sadness for your incredible loss. I will hold you in my thoughts. Please take care

I am so sorry to hear of your loss,

Your post was heartbreaking and extremely moving and I am finding it hard to think of the right words to say, other than repeat what others have already shared.
Keep your chin up, it's hard to see the good things ahead, life throws us a curve ball no matter if we swing or hold back, the ball still goes past and continues on.

It takes a lot to share with us, especially something as sorrowing as your situation.
You are in our thoughts, thing of this group as your WCPS family!

Karrie and I express our condolences and are thinking about you and your loved ones!