Boy, oh boy, oh boy. I hear you!
There was a time when Hubby and I had up to 5 appearances we were expected to put in over the holidays. Thankfully they were within driving distance, but still...for the first three New Years of our daughter's life we were in the emergency room of the hospital. With missed naps, a million people handling her, by New Years she was sick as a dog. ANd I was worn out and feeling pulled in 1000 directions.
And then I went berserk.
I just stood up and said NO! No, we are not doing this! When we were young and single and mobile and not a family of our own, yes, going home was what we did. But now we WERE a family! Time for old traditions to move over and make room for new traditions.
TripleJ, you will be in for the fight of your life because people who are used to having it one way, their way, are not happy about change. BUt you are just going to have to dig in and sit there, stump like. Do not let guilt or threats or condemnation move you. YOu have to make up your mind and your resolve that you have had enough and it stops NOW!
My mother has been a widow ofor 22 years and it was hard for her to give up having the family come home for Christmas. But I sat her down and explained as kindly as I could that I had grown to hate the demands of Christmas. Now I wanted to be home with my own family. And instead of going home to mom's for Chrsitmas, I now have mom come to my house for Christmas. I clean the house, set the table, make the prime rib (not a turkey fan) and mom brings a few fave dishes. I give great credit to my mom for opening her mind and being willing to embrace change. It was weird for her, but weird is not fatal. People can adjust and survive.
WIth Hubby's parents being divorced it was a pull in two direction, both wanting us at Christmas. BUt now, with the kids being spread all over the place and HUbby and I being closest, I have both his parents and their new partners over at my place too. Again, hats off to his parents for working hard to set aside differences and learn to be civil, for the sake of their kids, and we can all sit here, at my house, my mom and his parents, and have a GREAT time.
And I haven't left my house!
It may not work out this way for you, TripleJ. Maybe the thought of everyone at your house makes you freak out. (I still stress and fuss, but less as years go by). Many ofu s feel the way you do at Christmas. The trick is deciding you are willing to withstand all the negative junk that is going to come your way when you make a change. ANd it will not go smoothyl, people expect things, and being disappointed is NOT one of the things they expect!
Does you Hubby support you in this change or is he going to give you flack and guilt too? Spend some time with yourself and figure out what you are willing to do, and what you aren't. How much visiting is enough, and how much is too much. Can you split it up in years? One place one year, other place next year? Can you get together with someone for coffee and pie the weekend before? THere's more than one way to skin a cat and this might take some wrangling and juggling, but it's not imossible. You just have to accept that there will be unhappy people. As long as you try to be as equitable as you can, offer reasonalbe alternatives, without making yourself hate the whole season, then them being unhappy has to be THEIR problem, and not yours. This is a tough one. I made it work, but not without struggles.