I'm sorry Tara I know exactly how you feel. I also let me old guy go just before labour day weekend and I'm still at a complete loss without him beside me. He also chose me as he came from a rough existence when I picked up the bedraggled boy who peed and cowered away if I growled at the kids or any loud sound, hips so bad and so out of shape from probably always being chained because he couldn't walk 100ft without complete exhaustion and his teeth so worn down that some had to be removed
He was already about 6yrs old so I was told he wouldn't live long being a giant breed and so many issues. I took him home anyways and he decided he belonged beside me. I'm certain if he could talk he could tell you every single move I made in the 7yrs he was in my life because he was beside me or very close. Until very recently he walked miles with me as I did chores, chased kids and went about daily life. Tall enough I never had to bend to pet him and could just rest my hand on his big furry head all day long without even thinking about it because he was just always right there. The last week of August he'd had enough and he let me know, I was not at all prepared and am still a mess. My shadow is gone so no one to do chores with, no longer need to watch my step when in the kitchen, no one to snore and pant beside me as I type this. The hardest part is when I get up in the morning there is no big brown eyes and lethal weapon sized tail wagging to greet me, no happy howling songs when I step out of his sight. So hard that our faithful 4legged friends live such short lives compared to ours but they sure do bring alot of joys to our lives so the pain of losing is worth it but wow still hard to let them go
covered in 19 day old quail he put up with soooo much
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]Miss that happy tail and song a lot
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]He acted younger as he got older. Last yr at 12yrs old keeping up with the young ones
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]He refused to be left behind so I had to stop more often to play with my camera on walks while he rested
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]An old one but one of my favourites
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]It was very hard for him to walk ahead of me and kept turning around to check and see if I'd change my mind and call him back beside me
So many happy wonderful moments he shared with me so he is greatly missed and 3weeks later I'm still a basket case missing him. I feel your pain going through daily tasks with a 4 legged friend missing is tough