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Here's Jonny... Good to be back!

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1 Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Wed Apr 22, 2015 12:09 am

Jonny Anvil

Hi Everyone,

It has been a very long time since I last visited this forum. I recently started posting again on ACE. It was only a matter of time before I also made an appearance and came back and caught up with others here who I have made great friendships with.

Figured I should explain my absence to those who might not have read it.

As some of you may recall, I stepped back last year to focus on my health and self improvement. It became my priority to focus on NAIT and reclaiming my physical health, something that I am very proud to say that have both improved, my health the most!

I am very stoked to say that I have not had one "flare up" and my digestive system has significantly improved since October. I have had only one small flare up in the past 8 months! The main change, was I reduced my stress, and gained better control over my anxiety, since then I live a much more normal life, less discomfort. It has been such a pleasant experience to be able to not be in pain and have the issues I have had for the a good majority of my life. Who knew stress and severe anxiety would manifest into such physical symptoms, I didn't realize the extent of what it was doing to my physical health. It is nice to just be able to function and not have this burden anymore... The key is to continue on maintaining!

I am still actively engaged in studies at NAIT's JR Shaw School of Business and have been going strong since May of last year. I finished Year 1 courses in August 2014 and started Yr 2 courses last September. I decided to follow what I am good and and enrolled into Business Administration- Entrepreneurial Management (Focus on Entrepreneurial / New Venture Creation). To help lighten my stress load I decided to split the required 10, Yr. 2 courses over three semesters; fall 2014, winter and spring 2015. I finished Fall semester with a GPA of 3.2, and currently enrolled in semester 2 winter term taking 4 courses, and holding a B - B+ average. Final exams for this semester start on April 20th, and then my third semester starts on May 4th and I believe goes until mid August. Once I have these last few courses completed, I will have obtained my Business Administration- Management Diploma.
The Goal is to continue on and enroll into Year 3 September 2015, this fall and continue on to earn my Bachelors Business Administration- Management (with an Entrepreneurial focus) Degree in 2017!

During my time away, I worked towards getting my life back on track, it was a time I am very pleased to say is slowly being put behind myself. Life has it's challenges and unexpected occurrences, and sometimes blindsides us when we are trying to do the right thing.
I had a series of misfortunate personal, life-changing and very eye opening experiences while I was MIA.

In August of last year during final exams, I found out that the love of my life had betrayed my trust through her infidelity. I was already in a dark spot and nearly was brought down by the uncovering of her dishonesty. I hit the absolute lowest I have ever been, and struggled on numerous levels to go on. It was a very emotional experience, It got very dark, and I lost myself.
In late September, after starting my second year of studies, and after talking things through, I thought we began to work through things and we slowly worked on our relationship. In February this year, a few days before my birthday, I uncovered that there were more lies, and that I had been deceived for the past few months. Found out I had me further lied to and that her infidelity was continuing on... I couldn't take it and more and when I confronted her about it she confessed that she had not loved me for two years, and that she had been stringing me along, cause I am a great guy, but her mother doesn't approve of our love. That her mother has been trying to get her to break up with me since the Fall of 2013. The last thing that she ever said to me, her mother had given her an ultimatum... stay with me and she would be cut out of the will.

Well she choose the will... and my best friend, and whom I thought was the love of my life walked out of my life... I have not spoken with her since Feb 13th.

While I was in the process of regaining control of my life, working very tirelessly to overall improve things to have a brighter more successful happy future, the one person I trusted most and never thought would hurt me, did just that. It was a major eye-opening and heart wrenching experience that has since changed the course of my life, so to say.

On a positive note, I am no longer being subjected to the lies, dishonesty and blindness of that toxic relationship. It's not easy, and has been hard to let go, but with each day that does go by, I find myself regaining my happiness, and growing stronger.

To be blunt, it is so nice to no longer be in a relationship that was, unknowingly dragging me down. I realized that I had given up so much, changed who I was, and forgone opportunity just to be with someone whom I thought cared for me and had my back. I have woken up and in the process of moving on. The motivator... I deserve better and I know it. I wish nothing but the best for her, but there is no room in my life for that kind of person, and it feels good to finally have my freedom back.

I feel like a new person in a way, slowly I will regain my confidence and seeing myself for who, what I am and where I can go in life.

While my studies are my main priority, I do plan to make an effort to be active and check in on the forum.

I truly miss all the wonderful people I have met through this board... I have made many friends, some of the most charismatic and genuinely good hearted people in my life reside among this community.

I have clashed and locked horns with a few, and I hope that they will allow a second chance to rebuild respect... I wasn't myself last year and I realize this more now than ever, if I could go back and change the way I dealt with things, I would, but the past is what it is. Its about building a stronger, more positive future.

While this will be a slow re-integration for myself... I have to say... It's good to be back!

P.S. Thank you to those who kept in contact with me... If you had contacted myself and I never got back to you. I wasn't reading emails for a while and in a fit of misery and anger I deleted over 300+ unread emails in my inbox a few months ago. So I may have missed it, my apologies.




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2 Re: Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Wed Apr 22, 2015 7:46 am


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Welcome Back Jonny
Good to see you here and over on ACE
Glad things are working for the Good

3 Re: Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Wed Apr 22, 2015 8:37 am


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4 Re: Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Wed Apr 22, 2015 9:05 am


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Life has many twists and turns and it's what makes us who we are. Happy to hear you're feeling better and made the positive changes you need to be happy.

5 Re: Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Thu Apr 23, 2015 6:59 pm

Bob G

Good to see you back Very Happy

6 Re: Here's Jonny... Good to be back! on Sun Apr 26, 2015 6:58 am


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Yes, good to have you back. Do have a beautiful day, CynthiaM.

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